So for the last year, my family and I have been trying hard to get into a house. Not we are not grateful to be where we are but we have outgrown where we are currently are. We have 5 kids that live with us all the time and are living in a single wide 3 bedroom trailer. 3 high schoolers, a middle schooler and an elementary schooler and 2 dogs. The rooms are barely big enough for a bunk bed alone with bunk beds and  a place to put their clothes.

Yesterday we found a place that was perfect. It was in the country with acreage and enough rooms and space for everyone. It felt like home. The peace and quiet away from the city was something that we were looking for. But today we were told that we couldn’t move in because of our dog. We didn’t meet in person to see but to hear that we have a mastiff was a big turn off for the owners. Though because my dog is big doesn’t mean she is destructive. Kids are more destructive than my dog. 

I can’t say I wasn’t disappointed to hear that they didn’t want to rent to us. I was crushed to the point I was crying. I felt defeated to every corner we have turned was another rejection. I know what some of you think, why not get rid of the dog? She is family, we had her since she was 8 weeks old. We picked her out when she was born. The other question is why don’t we buy a house so we don’t have to worry about owners rejections? Our credit is crap. Well mine is. That’s no one’s fault but my own. I have taken that responsibility and owned it. So where I am today and where my family is today is because of all the bad choices I have made throughout the years.

Here is my hit with reality~ I must tie my boot straps and take all my disappointments and my defeats and do something about it. Remember how I feel now and put it into my future for my family. That means I must work hard to get out where I am and do what I love to. I must put all my faith into it. I can’t just talk about it but I must put God into everything I do and make him first in our family. With him I can do anything and everything. There is nothing I can’t do.

So what is my plan? I am going to make a plan to start my own business. My dream business is to own a coffee shop, teach people how to cook, and learn new types of foods to cook. I will blog about the new recipes and keep you all updated on my road to success.

relentless mamma